Pandemic Week 18

We got to celebrate this week!  My kiddo turned 23 this week – how did that happen?!  Time really does go by so fast, it’s so hard to believe that I have a kid who’s 23. I still feel like I could be in my 20’s myself sometimes.  We had a quiet and normal day pretty much. I asked what he wanted for his dinner and his choice was tacos.  For dessert he wanted key lime pie as first choice and second choice was lemon pie.  The store didn’t have any key lime so I made him lemon. I couldn’t find where my hand mixer was, so I ended up hand whipping the egg whites for meringue.

Still working on the basics.  I’m getting better about eating more than once a day. TMI, but it’s that time of the month for me, so I’m usually more ravenous then.  Hopefully it helps get my body back to wanting to eat more than once a day though after it’s done in a few days.  As for movement, it’s still on the back burner for me even though I know I need to push myself to at least get back to walking.  I am getting dressed and showering more often though – and that’s definitely helping the depression side of things. Sleep – it’s getting a little better.  I’m getting more than 3 or 4 hours now, not always in one shot though.  I did order a weighted blanket to add into my sleep routine and it seems to be helping a little so far.  I am still getting used to it though.  Look out for a full blog post for my review of it. 

One of the worksheets my therapist had me work on this week was listing out everything I did and rate them if they were nourishing, depleting or neutral.  In doing this exercise, it helped me see that I do more than I give myself credit for.  Before writing it all out, I felt like I was wasting a lot of time, but I do really get some things done. In explaining how things I do made me feel on the rating scale, she pointed out that I have a great intuition to identifying it and that I am already doing a whole bunch of things that help assist in making things I do be nourishing instead of depleting (like unfollowing/blocking people on Facebook so scrolling isn’t draining or limiting the amount of Covid news I watch).  I’m going to continue to fill it out again to see if there are any other things or changes to this last week. 

Another thing I did was write down a list of positive affirmations.  I wrote things down off the top of my head as well as googled and added to my list with ones that resonated with me.  I look forward to incorporating them into my routine as both positive and calming self talk and into meditations. 

While the depression hasn’t felt quite so heavy this week, the anxiety has been pretty high.  Nothing specific happened to trigger it – just the regular stress I’ve been feeling – but the mental static has been strong all week.  I have a constant ringing or wooshing in my head all the time and my stomach is super tight and full of butterflies.  

I am feeling super grateful for my amazing friends this week. I had a few reach out to check in on me because they know how hard things have been feeling.  But one in particular practically brought me to tears for how kind their words were.  Reminding me how strong I am and how I’ve dug deep to achieve some pretty remarkable things in my life.  I appreciate you friend.  If you’re reading this, it meant more to me than you know. 

This weekend I attended an online conference for the side business. There was some great info on networking and goal setting. The goal setting one actually resonated with all the things I’ve started looking at with therapy and I feel like I got so much insight on things to add to all the things I’m starting to work on.  It’s like it all came together at the right time, right as I was ready to really hear it – not just for the business, but for life. 

That’s about it around here this week. 

Until next time, xoxo