It feels like I was *just* writing the single for 6 months post and wham, it’s now over 1 year. Time for an update and check in. Am I still glad to have broken it off? Yep. I feel so much calmer and relaxed. That’s how I know it was the right thing to do. My friends, especially ones I don’t see all that often, make comments about how free my spirit is now.
Am I glad to still be single or do I wish I was back in a relationship? Honestly? I’m happy being single still. I like that I can just live my life and do the things and not have to worry about anyone else. After work I’m free to just be home and be quiet and recharge without feeling like I need to still be “on”. I really do enjoy my quiet alone time. Even tho both my son and my brother live with me, they know I like my quiet time and while we’ll all have dinner together and catch up on our days, after that everyone just kind of retreats to their rooms and I get the alone time I need to recharge.
I’m really quite the introvert. Always the quiet one unless I have something to say or share. I really don’t make a ton of small talk and I’m always usually the listener. Being single really goes hand in hand with being such an introvert and needing that alone time. Don’t get me wrong, I love affection and greatly miss cuddles. I’m grateful that I have amazing friends and a son who are huggers like me.
Am I ready to find someone new? I’m still not specifically looking. I did go on a date a couple of months ago but I don’t think that I was ready. It was nice to meet someone new and try to get to know someone. He was nice enough but I don’t think it was the right match for the right time. I think if/when it happens, it will be a gradual and slow thing that just kind of evolves from being just friends. I know I’m not ready to rush into anything. Of course there’s always effort that goes into relationships, but it’s nice to just be an easy effort. Not forced or obligated. Easy. If it comes natural then I think I’d be open to it. Just not something fast or jumped into. I’m content being single… but if the right person comes along and just fits into my life, then you never know!
For now I’ll just continue with the self care and keep trucking along.
Until next time, xoxo